Need money?... me too!

These last week my Mom went home and ask to lend her money for a new business. She's asking for 15,000 Php for starting capital of canteen business. Unfortunately I don't have that not so big money on hand so I was advised to get a Payday loan.

Loan approval is the one that makes me wait things that I don't like especially from government centered company. I remember my friend whom just had his loan. He had the money after completing the requirements, and he just put it to fill his credit card's bill so card was blocked on the list. If I'm not mistaken he go for the payday loans, so I inquire 'bout the difference of such with Cash advance, but we never had a talk after regarding the matter.

It is really hard to find money these days especially if you're the bread winner and holding the title. The next was the problem that I can't resist. I apologized that I can't lend my mom her capital and she feel the same but still with hope she just instead ask me to send my brother t school and I never refuse of it cause I know though It'll not be advisable to have loan but for education it's worthy.

Me, my books and my reviews...

As I've said in the left side of my blog, I am fun with books. Though there is not so much that interests me regarding such but it totally affects me as a whole person through the values and sense not only by the book but by the author itself.

I have read only a few but I can say that I have learned so much from it. The first book that I enjoyed was Tuesday's with Morie, well though I just read it for grades it did affect so much towards my attitudes to my professors year ago. Then religiously, I read Dan Brown's The Da Vinci Code it affects me by the facts that the book have but still I remain in my faith as a christian. After these I have read series of books by Bob Ong, not that known cause he's a Filipino writer but if only his books be published in English which is Universal Language, well I can say that he really catches the sense and rumor of the teens (I'm not teens though I still act as such...heheheh!)

Other than reading I am also fun of playing different musical instruments but not limited to piano, guitar, tambourine and xylophone. I can read notes and music sheet but not a guitar tab I don't know what the difference are but I really can't understand such tab... I know frets and notes but when reading tab I don't know which is which... I think that's all that I can say about my self.
Other topics on my blogs are only facade that I have tried while trying to learn how to blog.

Blogging attack...

From my past postings I have shared you of how this blog makes my mind go round. I just want to update you of this. Looking or finding ways to boost my page is normal especially for newbies and I have found search engine optimization, though I have'nt prove of the effect I am still hoping this will make me best.

I am still not tired of looking for something new so even I don't know how and what will this new techniues will give to my blogs I still try it. I am not afraid of doing this, I just make sure that I'll take the consequence if such turns bad.

blogging attack...

Looking for part time to earn some was the beginning. I searched the net as the usual and comes as it is, some sites are for gambling and most of them are not true. In searching for the real site I encountered blogging as number one money maker not only once but most of the pages that I had visited are telling the same. The thing is, I don't know what blogging is so I don't pay or spend time for this. I joined all most all sites just to get paid but none of the promises comes real. 'Till now the $5 or $10 per sign up still a checked and has not been issued to my name, where does it go??? I don't know, maybe walking on the street looking for some pocket.

Featured in a local variety show here in the Philippines, reputable blogger whom earns 80,00 Php for a month caught my attention and push me to study what blogging is. So I asked all friends and office mates of such, but I heard no one like me their not familiar with it. Like what I usually do, I consulted again my adviser (the net), search and search and thank GOD I was able to catch some helpful information. Now the problem is how can I create my own, Internet still makes me more impress of the result. I found SPACES of Windows Live, where I create 2nd face of me but this blog never satisfy me so I look for other sites that offers free to vreate one. I remember this blogger.com site, where I signed up too but didn't pursue on the said site. That I don't have the knowledge of running a site in more complicated ways. 'Till my office mate told me the story of his blogger friend and refers me to blogger.com luckily I was able to remain my old blog but deleted it and create a new so I have my first ever experimental blog.

Maintaining a blog is really difficult especially if you don't have your own computer. I used to access my site from our office and update it once a while. I was taking over break due to blog addiction (in my term), I am taking my break but I am not eating so it firms my diet. My supervisor was about to issue a progressive discipline for accessing unapproved websites such Google and so he still forgive me for the first and last time and suggested me to access those sites on the computer that was assigned from our offices' pantry. Unfortunately we only have two available computers free for unapproved sites for 450 employees and most of the time always filled up by waiting surfers. But the situation wasn't given chance to stop me and still able to create the light side of my blog. Here I post all the things that I have learned from blogging.

Want to earn???

Be crazy first!!!

loving her...

You might be thinking that I am lesbian... heheh nah!!!


I have posted an an article before this and I consider this as not a continuation but I suggest you should have read the "Confession of a Mistress" and "The MISTRESS and her secret life...". It is really so hard for gents not to look for a new one it's like offering them same viand not only by day but every meal. I have asked my partner of this, so makes me confused. This however is significant with loyalty and faithful, synonymously have same meaning but different thought.


Loyalty as per Wikipedia is faithfulness to a group or person. This means you could see other people than them but wouldn't be able to hold commitment or responsibility. Faithfulness is having only one mate, these is applicable of husbands and wives but shouldn't have one or more partners (s*x mates too..).


I have asked my boy friends (not partners huh!!!), it is really hard to do such. Though there are few whom responsibly don't take the risk of cheating, still big percent of them are loyal (not faithful).

LOVE OF MY LIFE

You've might already read of what life of a mistress is, but I gave you the option of knowing me deeply or let those perception from your subconciusness left behind. For those whom have read it well I hope you won't get inspired from it. I am telling this to you cause I don't what you to follow my steps but i wrote it for you to have the idea of how sad and hard is as a mistress.

Going to my love life, I met him in my college days, I was second year then on second semester of school year. He was my professor in Economics and LRT (Land Reformed Taxation). It turns that we need some help from a person who'll understand the situation and my friend who had the problem chose him so, we ask for his help and we did not failed of having his help. In short my friends problem was resolved but still she stands on her position which for my partner and I is another mistake. Having the problem solved, this gives us a way to get closer with each other but this closenes does not include only us two but this friendship built with my friends as well. Without my knowing my friend whom had the problem before (lets keep her name and call her Jean) is having communication with him through texting and I at the same time. So he get confused of which to get along with. After a week of texting without any words of confirmation we felt the same for each other (clue: it's more of we liking each but we're not in love, I don't know how to explain). It's us! While He and Jean is also having the same affair so I make him choose between her or me (Miss Saigon). Finally he chose me so that's it!

There's a lot to follow, but It'll cover the whole blog and not only the pages itself but the blog almost. We were cought by his son together, that were having affair and he've got some evedence of my number and messages for his father. His son even tried to disguise as other person whom's interresting in my character and wants to meet me. Good thing I did'nt let him bother me so.

I graduated the and had my work for now and were still together. Difficult? Yes! But these trials will makes us stronger than before.

THE NEW ME...

I've been so different this year, so different from the way I am in my college days. I am so alone before no one would like to go with me, my classmates even tease me of being exagerated, I admit that but not most of the time. Being alone gives me the fear of knowing what others think of you or rather say PARANOID yeah I know, but this feeling makes me secure that no one hates me though I know that no one even likes me. Well I did try of changing my self, but the more I changed the more people thinks I'm getting exage again... I don't know why but this affects me thru keeping my opinion by my self and not to speak if not asked. This alsoo gives me the reason to focus on my course be busy in my college days, but it seems that God is trying to test me for giving me responsibility of being a class leader. Not to hard of the responsibility, its the people around me whos making it complicated. Everyone want's their opinion be granted by not considering others, but when the time comes that they need consideration well the'll not just ask for it but demand.

This is me today...HAPPY and SATISFIED with my life. Contented with the people behind supporting things and gives opinion that I need. Having new good friends this is what my short comings in the past, though I do have some but I did'nt gave them importance.

Loving Him...

You guys all know of the forbidden relationship that I had sine I created the series of "Confession of a Mistress" and "the mistress and her secret life". Since this story was open to all my readers I know some are thinking that this maybe was one of my strategy of getting some ranks. Dear, you all don't know how hard of doing such confession. I even want to post our pictures one of this days but I realized that it'll be more complicated especially when his sons get online and found our pictures.


I just wanted to share some parts of being a mistress. Do you guys know how many times I was asked of how I was attracted of my partner. I'll just describe is look for I am not or will not allow my self of posting his face. Due to people whom judging my personality of the relationship that I had, I asked my self more than a thousand times of how I fall in love with him. Hard to believe, right! Yeah as always, people do usually react same way as you do. He's not a rich nor handsome guy, he's trice as old as I am. He doesn't have the look but the humor will make you fall. It is not easy of falling in love with him not only for some cases but for the most. One thing that is only consistent in my answer whenever I encountered such question. Why I love him that much??? I don't know, I just had the feeling and poof we became lovers.


In reading this, I want to leave a question in your mind my dear reader, what do you think is the best reason of loving someone? Would it be of loving him or her of what he or she was?

The MISTRESS

Before reading the content I should have advised you to read my post before "The CONFESSION" once you get in to this article I assure you'll understand things that I am talking. Anyways going back to the topic, I post this to call for the mistresses that they should know where to place their selves in their Man's heart. I've heard the sayings that mistress is loved than the wife, though for me this wasn't prove. But in two same relationship I think the sayings were baseless so.

It is really hard to understand and prepare your self in such cases that Mistresses usually have. I need not to prove this, even an ordinary people knows that being a mistress is so hard except of being dirty you don't have your place to be one of your Partner's family. I've tried being one of them once, yes! I am successful of doing such without his wife and son's knowing. What do I mean?
As one of the family I should have take consider them and mostly sacrifice or suffer. Not getting my point? I know what you're thinking, that I never considered them of being their Father's mistress, right! OK! The situation was this, though his family obviously not know me I don't take them for granted. When they need their father, I don't force him to stay with me (so hard yes, but I need to). Don't expect for time that he will spend with you or better say don't hope that he have time for you even a single minute, this will break your heart and head (how? you'll get Paranoid, that's if you really love him). Don't ever wish even to yourself that he will be yours one time specially forever, you know who are you in his life.

You know the song "Saving All my love for you"? That's what exactly a mistress should be. But the most important thing is that, never ever try to ask your PARTNER to choose between you and "HER". Why, at least have your conscience. Being with him for once is enough, even how much you love him. What's the point? You know that even he loves you more, you should also know that he still love his family. Would you let him suffer for your own? Yes! You could have your own with him but you wouldn't be ever able to replace them. One thing, if you treated them as one of your family then, don't hurt them. A wound is painful but could be heal, life can be taken but will never get back.

After this article I might have the next on my mind the "Unfaithfully loving her" but I'll be posting this in my other blog I'll put a link once I finished the said one.

The CONFESSION

Yes! You heard it right! This is a confession of a mistress, and you're thinking that the mistress is me? Yeah, it's me! It is so really hard to be a wife and they say mistress is a big b**** Whatever they say then, let them be. Those people pretending their clean as if they don't cheat their partners! All of us does, but others make it in a silent way, that only them could hear the pound of their heart beat whenever the other party attracting you. Yes! it's already cheating and you know that, but your just keeping it to yourself so whose b**** now! Guy's I just wanted to open some, I don't know if my parents do know about this side of me but I fell thy do. they just want to open it to me maybe because they might get hurt if they'll hear it from my mouth. This is the greatest burden from being a mistress, you don't know how to tell your family of who you are. Good thing that I had a family that is not tolerating me as well as not condemning my personality. maybe they also feel happy for me in a way that I found contentment and happy in this kind of life, that I am mature enough to carry such but still young at heart.

In three years of having such relation, it is really hard to find most of my partners time. I can't resist of being the last of his list but still I hope he did. I am a hypocrite if I say that I never wished to stand as his wife but I never ever wished for his wife to gone out of ours life. I wished too, to be the mother of his children but I never long to be treated as their step mom. Saving all my love for you of Whitney Houston really fits my situation and my friends too is advising me to look for someone whom could give me the life that I deserve.

This relationship starts from my college days want to know my love story? It's kind a boring but if your interested then continue reading my posts I might be posting it by next week.

Dating right

It is really hard to find your Mr. Right whether its online or actual, world wide or just around your place. For guys it will really take you time before you had the holy yes of your ideal girl, especially when your not her type. Having such trouble will not only gave you a broken heart but also a heart attack. As usual, I had gathered some information online though it is hard to think of a topic for conversation starters this is always the best thing to do to make your girl impressed.

And for you not to have hard time of looking for someone perfect and matches your personality there are events for singles that you can check near your place or you can also check online to look for such. I am not only talking for men's but for ladies too. Just be careful of doing this and make sure to know the person you are talking with before you get finally hooked not knowing he is in disguise. Well there are are online sites also whom are asking for identification such as as social security numbers making sure of the real person and not a a kidnapper or whatever they may be.

If you want to make your courting techniques get better you can also hire a dating coach not only from one country if you are trying to court a foreigner. They can also translate your words for the girl you were longing. This is for guys whom are not familiar with the langguage and culture of your opposite. There are online offers for this you will just need an internet to get in touch if you want, there are also internet cafe where you can have some time to get online.

But the most important thing is that be cautious though there are online sites that are trusted it is only you who can prevent danger from your life. As they say prevention is better than cure.