Killing me softly...

Really it is so hard to face the truth, well it is harder when you want to face it yet it can't turn around to look in to your eyes. I have opened my life to you dear readers and these past months since a friend come into my home there are things that bothers the whole me. I am not that good looking if some has a picture of me in my mind, but this reasons that I can't blame was a friend whom I don't really know if he fell for me.

Not only I, but we are 7 students whom was a group and had the support of our professor who was now my boyfriend. It was I, my childhood friend Lei, Andy, Kris, Marge, Cris and Aqqui. While we don't know Aqqui personally the remaining was really close except of Kris who soon totally gone and apart for reasons. I and our professor was very open to them, so they all know about us from the first, then Andy and Marge announces their relationship, while Cris found Mitzy a schoolmate and a friend. Lei remains single. I have tried to push Andy to lei since he broke up with Marge for personal reasons.

Lately it was only I my boyfriend, Andy and Cris who remains in the group. Cris and Mitzy gets busy so were only three who's seeing each other and represents the group. It was then that Andy come as my guard since my boyfriend could not show me for we had forbidden relationship. Never thought what would happen next, 'till one day I never heard any from Andy. The last thing I have known of him was his talk with my boyfriend. So I and my boyfriend remain and never heard of the rest.

One night, we're half asleep, Andy come into our home and hug me after I opened the door. His smell of alcohol stinks on my nose and so I let him in and zip a hot coffee. He narrate his talk with my boyfriend and I was told not to listen to him by my boyfriend (for any reason I am still guessing up to now). So |Andy told me that my boyfriend get jealous of him and thought that he was courting me. I am so afraid to ask my boyfriend regarding this but I remain silent 'till I remember one time under the bed there was an envelope. It was from Andy, this was given to me after his broke up with Marge, it was a poem and I just realize how hard it was for him to tell me yet he know how I really love my boyfriend so he waited 'till I get lose and tired of Him. Unfortunately we lasted this long and never thought of losing my love, since that night I have loved my boyfriend not by protecting that much from Andy but I just felt I had so much from him.

Let's play!!!

Have you tried playing in Casinos?
Actually I don't have any idea of how does it looks. I just remember one time, while watching local news. The network featured the Nuns and Priests playing there, and they even prayed or guested on the launching of the particular place. I just wonder if they keep money from gambling for their charity, so how would those poor people whom was attracted to gambling? Hoping that they will take home the biggest prizes yet they or though they don't have something to eat?

These days computers and internet are also in demand, no wonder why gambling invade the online casino. Now a days we really can't stop our selves of such temptation to it, as we can even see them at home on your desk top. Is Gambling need to be banned?

'Till when can we sacrifice our selves only for our vices and luxury?

4 years... contented???

I have revealed for months ago the confession of a mistress, now that we are on our forth year something bothered me. This started when I had my conversation with a friend who's a blogger too. She never had a boyfriend since then and I can't find a word to describe how she feel for this revelation that I had on the web. It was accidentally that she opened my page and scan the articles, it is really on my plan to tell them what kind of girl am I but not this early. I never hide such feeling to any of my friend since I know that they would not question me regarding the forbidden love. As expected she did not but still looking forward of the guy who really meant for me.

This friend of mine affect in the way she makes her self of loving a man not his own. We are so opposite, she have so many questions to ask but only few were answered as some were not voiced respecting my feeling as her friend. Knowing true friend she never agree on such relationship that I had, but I showed her how happy and contented am I with this life. One of the questions that always hunt me was contentment. Was I really contented? Is this relationship will just be in this status? Will this be forever? and the most that hit me was How brave am I of justifying the love I want but never consider the feeling of the other character involve in the story?

Never did I gave the chance for his family to live happy like a true family should be?

All this questions will remain as well as this love that I have in heart.

Shop and cart??!!

When we go to shop the first that we need before entering the market would be a shopping cart. We look for a convinient and capable of loading stuff depends on the products that you want to buy. We also look for the weight of it when we carry especially when we only buys special and few things so we'll took just basket. If then that we need to load our kithen we then look for a cart that is in good running condition and can load your things.

Now a days we use to shop online and even on the web we still need to have a cart for us to check what we have already but what will be a good idea of a cart online? does this need to be huge to load up bunch of stuff or carry basket for number of products? Well I think shopping cart softwareshould be easy to upload and will let you see or navigate the products that you have, like carts in the market should be easy to carry, I mean should shopping cart let you know if you got all the things that you need.

Let me have a review...

When I learn to surf the net, I have heard so many news about blogging. In this business you can make money while expressing your opinion. No need to think of what you want to write cause their the one who'll give you task. I have found this site Smorty where blogger and advertisers are being introduced to one another. Well not exactly introduced but they have advertisers have the option of choosing the perfect blog and aothor for their project, also they have the chance to review the article before paying it. This gives chance to both advertiser and blogger to edit or change some of the article that might not sound good for the product.

Smorty is the middleman between publisher and the writer. They make things easier for businessmen and people whom looking for par time job. this is my first task where I am just telling a story of earning and share to others what i had and the good thing is that I am not just sharing you this but I am also earning to do such things like this... easy right!!!Guys!

Smorty is looking for writer, blogger and people whom wants to get paid to blog like me so take the opportunity, no boss, no traffic and no pressure. Hope to see you there!!!

Preggy??? Let see..

I have found thru net still that there are several ways to see you organs inside, these makes me curios when my office mate gets pregnant. She was so excited to see what her babies will look like, so my supervisor shares the same experience for ultrasound during her wife's pregnancy for their first baby. He bought some ultrasound results to show us how her baby looks like before. He was not an ultrasound tech but sounded convincing while he's explaining each part of the child, he's so excited same as with my friend. I have found then, that there are different types, kinds or whatever experts called it of ultrasound.

Mostly are the old type were you would just see some shaddows, but now a days you can view their figures through 3G ofr 4G from ultrasound tech school that I have searched on the net these were offered only a few here in our country and so expensive. I just wonder if the ultrasound technician school offered free testing for their students whom are pregnant? Well it's not my concern. I don't have any plans to get on any medical schools cause I never had the interrest of studying such. I just get curios of the way my friend act of having her first twins.